So, tried to do some session stuff with KRC.
First on stars, this was fun, as the games are just soft.
Then the second time, I did get to play on black chip. But we clashed (again).
Apparently we have quite different expectations of these "sessions" and quite different ideas of how to improve.
Im not saying I know anything better, specially poker wise but for me right now its like this.
If I can play for about 3 weeks brake even on black chip I free a thousand dollars. But for now I'm far from playing brake even there. And I am NOT going to sit there lose for three weeks trying to free anything. I just don't need this money that bad. Its money, but I have a life. Spending still feels way better then losing. I could use the money but its not like my life depends on it or anything.
So I would like to ask questions. Talk (two way comminucation) about concepts and things in general. Why to do things and how we come to this why's.
I dont give a fuck about timing out this one hand or that one dollar pot.
If I dont improve greatly fast I'll abonden the whole thousand dollar and black chip can stick it where the light don't shine all together.
I'll never improve from feeling bad, little or small. There is no need to bark at me. And I don't feel that I'm improving a lot when some one keeps screeming what I have to do or should not do. Just let me time out on aces and laugh at me. I'll feel stupid enough.
But mean while we could discuss why I should bluff these spots more and how to maintain balance when we bluff these spots instead of other spots etc. So I can improve to where I can play profitably on my own and maybe even improve beyond soem level on my own.
I mean, if someone keeps telling me what to do every hand then over the course of hours I might get the hang of it, but in general I'll keep guessing as to why to do this or that, here or there. But I dont feel like I have time for that.
And O, one last thing. I will not spend more on any training site. I have never ever profited from any of that shit before. And since I haven't won a dollar for ages by now I'm certainly not gonna spend it on more waste of life before I actually gained anything with poker.
So for now I'm just not gonna play hand for a few days. We set this date for monday that should be a fun session. But since we classed again like this I don't even feel like I want to join.
If that thousand dollars is not gonna come then Fuck Poker. This should be fucking money.
For me a session should be like play some hands find a situation, questions pop up, and we discuss and I improve. And hopefully the other can improve a little on the way to.
But really fuck this one hand. If I improve I can just sit there andplay a thousand more hands. And I guaraantee I won't time out all the time when I can brake the level and just play for stacks. Not to improve but to grind.